walk away...

ever felt and tell urself this is so sucky?? i mean ive had my low point in life. but nothing wins about last night...

for the 1st time in my entire 30 years of existence on this planet that i felt im isolated and helpless... how lowest can it gets in my life now. suddenly everything around seems bright and colourful whereas im the only grey one out.

i start to question about my existence: m i a liable for people around me, my loved ones especially. is my character getting on their nerves? is my performance at work calls for reconstruction? is my love life getting nowhere?

i just felt alone and helpless though ive a brilliant Shiraz wine in front of me... m i gonna feel this way from now on or all e time? y others can feel as though nothing serious happens? was i sensitive? too sensitive to worry about?

is there any (way) to improve my life? is there a way to get away from e difficulties ive had. y i felt not like my own self: my own carefree Bernard the way it is before...

nothing happens to me but i feel its getting hard to carry on my life now...

strangely, the once hot-tempered in me have slowly subsided... i do not get petty or angry at small little things... its rather tiring to pursue a lost cause... in its place... i chooses to............


WALK AWAY...............

someone will notice my change in behaviour... or perhaps no one will care... but i know wat i want and again... i wld rather walk away than confront the situation head-on.

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